13.12.2009

~sigh~

it's been so long i didnt update my blog. nowadays, time's runnin too fast. Damn!

my sisters' wedding was held at my home. Akad nikah on 12122009 after maghrib. Around 200 guest were invited. Family, close relatives, close frens and neighbors only. On 13132009, the event started at 11am until 4pm. Invited guest around 1000 but i dunno how many of them came. The event goes well even it didnt happened as what i wanted. Maybe my expectation was too high or i'm seeking for perfection. Hurmmm....i just got no idea on that. But as long as my family happy and satisfied, i'm ok with it. For those who came for the wedding, thank u very much for your time and the present. (On behalf of Hayati.... :) Many of my mum's fren from subang came. My long lost fren, aliah, atiqah was here too. Suprisingly, asykil n irina pon ade. Yeehaaa!!!! Around 4pm, it's over. But still there are people came to my house till 9pm. Dang....i was too tired to entertain them. Sorry.... For my sis, i wish the very best with her new life. Alhamdulillah, at last she met her life partner. And i know my whole family was too happy for her.




As for me, well, i guess i already found my soulmate but i dunno whether he'll be my life partner. Que sera, sera....what will be will be. We just plan but God will decide. Anyway, so many things happened to me this year. There are sadness, craziness, happiness and loads of other feelings. 2009, a year to remember. This is the year when i met this guy, Fadhil Rahman. During my sis wedding, he helped a lot. Thank u so much dear. I can see that he can blend well with my family. I'm so happy with that :) sumtime, he's a bit crazy but that's why i like him.... He bring joy to my life. And cos of him, i started to smile once again.

my last update for today....might be for the whole week.

fairuz is sleeping, snoring and dreaming peacefully. so do her roomate. biadap...tetamu dtg xlayan lgsg

meeting my dear fadhil in sri gombak and off to rumah thai, tmn melati for our break fast.

spend our 3rd last ramadhan nite together. walking on the streets. pi jln tar lagi ke? or danau kota? any other spot? nnti la pk otw kang.

it starting to rain. i better off now!! chow...


SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI. MAAF ZAHIR BATIN TULUS DARI HATI..

1DEC84 + 4DEC82 = BLISSFUL LIFE

Yeeeaaayyyyy!!
Lame gile xupdate blog saya. Da nek b'karat dah blog ni. I'm too busy at the moment. Bru lpas training for a month and now i went "live". My new job needs me to give full attention while i'm working. even to pickup my personal calls was so hard. Also d working hours was so long. Hurmmmm......xpe la, nk cari rezeki namenye kan. perlu bnyk pengorbanan.

Dlm tmpoh yg agak pnjang pemergian saya dari dunia blog ni terlalu bnyk kenangan pahit dan manis. Walaupun umor blum genap 25 thun, saya rasakan saya telah melalui terlalu bnyk dugaan hidup. Allah still keep me sane. For me as long Allah still giving me the challenges in life, i know that Allah still keep looking on me. Allah is showing the love so that i wont go to too far from Him.

Alhamdulillah kenangan pahit tu sume dah berlalu.Sekarang dunia saya penuh dengan warna-warni pelangi. Ini kerana saya masih mempunyai keluarga yg menyayangi dan memahami diri saya yg penuh dengan pemberontakan. Dlu bole dikatakan saya seorg yg agak jauh dari keluarga. Masa saya hanya bersama rakan2. Personal problems xpenah dishare dgn mereka. Tpi skang, tu sume dah b'ubah. Saya sudah mula bercerita ttg idup saya pada mereka, terutamanya ibunda tersayang. Time kaseh mak, sbb sudi denga cite jahat anak mak ni. Walaupun mak marah tapi mak senyum gak. Tiap kali mak kol, msti mak pesan suh solat. Insya'allah mak.... Skang baru la saya tahu yang keluarga merupakan support system terkuat dalam hidup ni. Mereka tetap berada bersama2 saya dalam waktu2 susah saya yg mana saya tidak mampu share dgn org lain. Keluarga takkan meninggalkn saya. Saya pasti itu.....(dang....i'm getting emotional now. better i stop.)

Rakan-rakan yg setia bersama saya, thanks gal especially miss fuzy n eqin. Dan yg terbaru....my dear Dale, kekasih yg sangt baik hati. hihihihi :) Die selalu nyanyi lagu munajat cinta by dewa. It goes like this "Tuhan kirimkan lah aku, kekasih yang baik hati, yang mencintai aku apa adanya....." well, i guess i'm the one who should be humming that song cos God has sent me a very good guy. If only i met him earlier.....it's ok as eqin said “A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one” Yess....i agree wit dat. Sumetime its just a matter of time. Kite t'lmbt jumpe dgn org yg betul2 suit dgn kite n kite dah bazirkn masa, tenaga, usaha, emosi ngan org yg TIDAK berguna. Tpi xpe, jgn menyesali takdir. Bende2 ni sume buat kite lebih dewasa. Klu hidup sentiasa senang je pon xsyok gak.

Yang terbaru lagi...saya dah join Fitness First. Huhuhuhuhu....at last, i've made up my mind and joined it. Mmg da lame t'ingin tpi terlalu bnyk kekangan. Yess!!! Saya sudah mencapai BMI yg seimbang. Tiada lagi...overweight... YES!! YES!! YES!! Satu pencapaian yg agak besar buat diri saya yg sememang nya seorang yg lemah dgn hdangan2 yg menggiurkan. Sekarang fokus utk shape up and maintaining what i've achieved today. Saya selalu pegi pun abes keje. So time balik Dale la yg masih setia mengambl dan menghntr saya pulang. Thank u dear.

Till here for today. I need to rush up to settle sumthing with a biatch and then fly back to my dear. Daaaa......

Everything will be ok.....
I told myself again and again.
I wonder how a real happiness feels like?
I wonder will i ever be happy?
I wonder about loads of stuff....

Am i crazy?
Nope...i dun think so.
I just need sumone that could bring me from the darkness to the bright light.
The bright light that could shine me through my journey.

Will i ever meet that person?
I wish i will.....be patient nia....everything will be fine..
Everything will be ok...
Everything will be good....
And u'll find your happiness.........

Nia is BaCk!!!

Congrats Faizal!!!

U rock man!!! Dunno wat else to say but really i admire you so much....lucky u've married. Hihihi....last nite, after all the stupid propa that happened last year, u've showed the whole world that you are a great singer...... Mg cantek sngt performance you. Dgn props, the hair cutting and suddenly u came up from the pool, wet and sexy....(gggrrrrr) I was crying when you sang that song. Tbe2 hati ni mcm direnyuk2 bile i dengar bait2 lagu tu. Dahla lagu tu, dia yg bagi. Damn......sungguh syahdu kala itu. =)

Sampai syurga kumenunggu.....Sampai syurga kucintamu.....Hanya satu.....Hanya kamu....

CONGRATS FAIZAL!!!! 2 thumbs up =)

Sakit!!

Hari ni saye sakit tekak.
Geram!!

Hari ni saye sakit kepala.
Marah!!

Hari ni saye sakit perut.
Aduhhhh!!

M.Y.L.O.V.E.

Cinta pertama ku....mereka yg bertanggungjawab di atas kelahiran ku yg memberi ku sepenuh kehendak dan keperluan ku. MAK+AYAH+ADIK BERADIK=HEPPI FAMILY

Nurfatihah, adik perempuan tunggal ku. Amat dikasihi dengan telatahnya yg selalu kurindui di kala kami berjauhan. Afriena, anak Along yg ke3. Sejak kecil, die sngt2 menarik perhatian ku. TEHA+AFRIENA=TENANG

Allif, Teha, Addeen.....adik-adik ku dunia akhirat. Walau berbeza manapun cara kita, kita tetap KAKAK+ADIK=SAYANG.

Kawan-kawan yg merupakan support system dalam segala hal. Sungguh saya bertuah mempunyai kawan2 sebegini. Bukan kawan2 yg sebegitu..... AIN+KAWAN2=KECERIAAN

Cantiknye kebaya ni...kalau la ade body yg cukup cantek utk dipadan kn dgn bju ni.

....Silent mode.....
Smpai office t'kjut. Ini ofis ke tmpt ape ni? Kenapa macam lain je?
Rizal meeting, Lin meeting, Azahar and Liza cuti, Richard pon cuti.
Ain bile nak cuti? Hurm....tunggu la korang. Tapi mcm sayang plak nak pecah kn rekod.
Selama 2 bulan keje ni, xpnah pon cuti or MC. Tibe-tibe rase diri ini sngt b'dslpin. Agagagaga =)

Last Saturday.....10 Jan 09

Venue..Stadium Malawati, Shah Alam

Date..10 Jan '09

Attendees...People who love peace and care bout their Muslim friend

The crowd.... My bro with his fren, at the 3rd row from the back.

Me and Adriana, along's daughter...

**sigh** Last Sat me and my sibling went to stadium melawati to show our support to the Palestinians. I arrived there at 10 a.m. There, i saw all the crew giving out posters and flyers. Then, we get into the stadium and not so many people inside there. When the program started, people keep on coming in but still the stadium was not full. I still see many seat are empty and it wasn't what i expected. Sayang sekali....kalu nak dibandingkan dengan audience time AF tu, jauuuhhhhh skali. Terfikir sekejap, orang M'sia ni mmg kejar bende2 b'bntuk hiburan je ke?? Tapi xpe la....maybe rmai yg ade komitmen lain. Back to the program, most of the crowd came from the UIAM students. They brought together Palestinians flags and lots of banners. The night before, me and my bros have prepared 2 banners but i didn't have the pics yet.. Lupe nk amik gamba banner sndiri =) nnti i'll upload bile da ade. "SHAME ON U!! KILLING D' CHILD" and "ISRAEL & U.S..THE REAL DAJJAL" was the text for our banner. It was very sickening to see the Israel is doing everything to get the Holy Land. The only thing i can do is to show my support to the Palestinian.

Satu lagi perkara yg menyakitkan hati bile i tgk berita mlm tdi. Org2 yahudi di Israel begitu gembira dengan apa yg berlaku sekarang. Diorang smpaikan menganggap setiap letupan peluru Israel bagaikan bunga api yang mereka nantikan. Mereka beramai2 mncari 'port' yg paling baik utk menyaksikan dan bertepuk gembira. Aduh...kejam sungguh mereka ini. Kemana pergi nye sifat kemanusiaan?? X kira bangsa atau ape agama sekalipun, as a human, who can stand there to watch the bomb who mostly killed the children and those innocent people?? Memang inilah yang dikatakan bahwa yahudi sememangnya bangsa yang paling jahat, kejam dan manusia yang paling tidak mengenal erti belas kasihan.....

But let us pray that this war and massacre will end very soon. Enough killing and suffer to those innocent people. But to those Israelis and their supporters, REMEMBER, one day, there will be one group of Mujahid will fight for each Muslims that have been killed!! This is not just a talk but this is the promise of our Prophet Muhammad s.a.w.

Khaibar...Khaibar...Ya Yahud!!

Remember how u've lose in Khaibar war...Wallahi, it will happen again.

Saya Gembira.....

Bangun tidur awal....

Saya gembira =)

Makan sarapan, tosai...

Saya gembira =)

SMS org penting dlm hidup saya...

Saya gembira =)

Pergi kerja....

Saya gembira =)

Dia tiada di ofis...

Saya gembira =)

Mau pulang ke Klang....

Saya gembira =)

Beli hadiah untuk Fateha....

Saya gembira =)

9 Januari 2009

Hari gembira saya..... =) =) =)

It Didn't Goes Well

Its only the 6th day in the new year, 2009...but for me, it such a long week. It didn't goes well as what i've planned....There's too much loneliness and emptiness in me.

Outside, people will see me smile at all times but no one knows that deep inside, i was crying. Till today, i really don't know what i want in my life. Yes, i have a luvvy duvvy family, friends and people surround me. But still, i feel lonely and i know, there are people who just won't let me live happy. Why?? I just can't figure it out and the most shocking is, she is the person that i'm closed to and Yes, we were good friends....


Before, my life wasn't like this....it's were all well planned and organized. With the help of the person that i love. Since he's gone, it such a mess. I feel like a handicap person. Half of my body, mind and soul didn't work well. I know, it was my fault to let him go and it wasn't the first time that i let him go. It's my fault!! It's my fault!! It's my fault!! I always change my mind at that is the biggest problem. Now, i realize, for him to come back to me is impossible..I've hurt him so much and i can only wish him the best of luck........


Now, i need to live my life....like a loneranger, strive for the best. No more, hanging out, no more chilling at the party. I'm back to my family....that's the only strength in me. Forget those guys,.....they were good friends and good companion but they aren't a listener for me to share. From now on, it's just ME, MYSELF & MY FAMILY.......

D.U.N.I.Y.A

Ku buka akhbar, berita nya sama
Palestin dibedil...
Ku selak majalah, juga yang sama
Palestin bermandi darah
Ku tonton tv, cerita yang sama
Mangsa Zionis bertambah
Ku buka blog, ceritanya tetap sama.....
Palestin dibedil, Israel berkuasa
Sampai bila ini kan terus terjadi

Hati pedih, luluh, hiba
Tiap kali menatap tubuh kaku tidak bernyawa
Menjadi mangsa ciptaan insan,
yang keras hatinya,
yang kurang kasihnya,
yang hilang sayangnya,
yang tipis malunya,
menjejak ke tanah milik orang
tanpa salam tanpa kata
hanya senjata yang berbicara....

Disaat dunia menyaksikan kezaliman Israel, aku terdiam sendiri. Aku sejak lahir telah didedahkan dengan peperangan. Perang..perang dan perang. Walau bukan di tanah tumpahku sendiri, peperangan di sana memberi kesan padaku. Aku mudah menangis, apatah lagi melihat kan kanak2 yang tidak mengerti apa-apa menjadi mangsa. Ibu kehilangan anak, suami kematian isteri, bayi yang tidak sempat mengenal ibu dan bapanya. Semua ini membuatku insaf..... Semua ini membuatku berasa syukur dengan nikmat yang dianugerahi padaku. Aku punya emak yang pengasih, ayah yang penyayang, kakak yang memahami, adik yang dikasihi. Bagiku, ini sudah cukup untuk ku mengharungi dunia yang penuh liku ini. Tapi, sejak seminggu yang lalu, aku berasa tertekan. Melihat saudaraku dibunuh tanpa sekelumit rasa ihsan. Aku hairan, bagaimana mudah nya mereka menarik punat-punat kematian itu. Mereka lah syaitan yang bertopeng kan manusia. Sungguh aku jijik melihat mereka. Inilah yang dikatakan dunia di hujung hayatnya... Nyawa bagaikan tiada harga. Yang penting hanyalah kuasa......sampai bila? Aku tiada jawapannya......

Masih lagi ada dikalangan kita yang tidak peka dengan keadaan semasa. Tgh syok la katekan.... Tgk la baju, cantek mmg cantek..punye la beso bendera Amerika tu kan. Bangga ke hape? For me, what a shame....saudara kite kat palestin rmai yg mati, menderita dan diseksa disebabkan kerakusan Israel yg mendapat tajaan penuh dari Amerika. Derang kat sana dok bakar bendera tu, kita kat sini punya la tinggi idung dok tayang kat baju. Aduh!!! Kt mane letaknye kesedaran kite?...... or senang cakap, kite kesah ke?

Help them......Pity the Palestinians....

Free them.....they are innocent. Give them chance to feel the air of freedom. Give them chance to live like us........

Does this boys look like a terrorist?? Or the people surrounding him??

Face of hatred. Hate the sea of ignorance of the world.....others just hear and see their suffer without doing anything.

Are we one of them??

They cry...and cry....and cry....but, will their tears end this terrorism?


"ZIONISM IS A FORM OF RACISM!!."

Help the Palestinians....they shouldn't be treated like this. The zionist are the real TERRORIST and the American Government are their biggest sponsor. Thill today more tha 500 Palestinians died and only 3 Israeli were killed. Still the American said that Israel is just defending their country. Are they stupid or what??!! This is not defending but this is ethnic cleansing.....