ShoutOut for newly wed.....Jihan+Zack!!

My dear NURJIHAN......
Zillion congrats, loves and hugs from me. I'm so happy for you till I almost cry during your solemnization on 27Nov 10 (it's your birthday too). Glad that I made it on time. ~phew~ officially, you are Mrs. Zack now. Parts of me saying that; "I’m losing my best friend" and parts of me saying; "I’m so delighted that she found her soul mate."

I’m sure your life is different now darling and I’m sure that you’ll be a great wifey. I try not to be a cry baby, but I can’t. I’m so happy for you Jihan….guess this is what people called tears of joy =D again, to my dearest Jihan. C.O.N.G.R.A.T.U.L.A.T.I.O.N.S!!!!!

To Zack, take good care of my dear Jihan kay. Dun ever let me hear her cry. Happy for both of you.

**pics will be uploaded soon =D

Days.....

I love rainy days..
I hate gloomy days...

Write it on....

This morning i received a text message from my officemate, Kamalesh. The message is like this

>> if you have to write a single beautiful line on my hand, what would you write?

Then i replied him with a single short word, JA'AT. He just laugh as he's sitting next to me then. Well yes...he is a total disaster. 100% pure Ja'at. Hahahahaha....Then, as usual i passed it to my friend and i received different answers and some unexpected answer. Listed are some of the answers that i received. Here it goes...

>> you're my lovely sis!
>> dun use this hand to slap me. hahaha
>> fadhil
>> gedik
>> Its nice to know you
>> i miss you
>> frens 4eva
>> ur beyond words....
>> thanks for being my friend
>> every time u smile at someone, its an action of friendship, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing....
>> want to be near u, not for the thoughts we share but for the words we never have to speak
>> God's sweetest creation... (~weehee~ i'm flying)

^_^ wink..wink..

I was wondering is that what i really am to them...Lucky i didn't received not-so-wanted negative response. Except for fuzy, she call me 'gedik'. Kdg2 gedik gak...So i just suck it up for what people say or think or predict what i am. It's a free country. People can say anything bout u and you can say anything you want bout others too right?

P.R.E.T.E.N.D.E.R

Am i a good pretender?
We'll as far as I can see, YES. I've done a very good job. bravo!!!
Was it a real cheer? I guess, I'm still pretending to be happy.

Deep inside, I'm critically wounded. I dunno will I ever heal.
But in front of others, I wear a smile. Just to fool them.
Pretend that I'm happy which i am not.
Wish they will never know that it's just a show.

Now, its just ME...again....ONLY ME & MYSELF.
I'm just waiting for the ''result'' which I guess that could change my life.Really hope that I'll make it through.
If I'm in, then i would probably say Goodbye....
Goodbye to the sadness surround me..goodbye to those memories that used to be my strength...goodbye to everyone. I'm done..

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.

I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

jom cari keje.....

hari ini, bermula nya pencarian sebuah kerjaya baru dlm hidup saye.
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perasaan bosan dan malas mula menular ke segenap tubuh ini.
malas dan bosan untuk bangun dan menuju ke KLCC kemudian menapak ke Menara TA untuk naik ke tingkat 18 dan duduk di hadapan PC untuk meneliti senarai call back yang perlu diselesaikan pada setiap hari.....malas untuk berdepan dengan newbies yang banyak perangai.
ade yang mcam xde msuk training lgsung....ade yg b'lagak diva....dan ade yg da wat taik dgn saye....xpe, akan ku ingat!!!
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semua ni dugaan..saye tau itu.
jadi, saye mengambil langkah yg pertama hari ini untuk membuka akaun Jobstreet yg tlah terlalu lama saya tingglkan. yeayyyy......saye agak bangga melihat "employment history" yang agak panjang tu. saye mmg terer dlm hal melompat tmpt keje ni. tpi xelok gak...tpi nk wat cmne, saye mmg mudah bosan dgn sesuatu yg saye lakukan dlm tmpoh yg lame.
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okay, saye baru saje meng'apply post sbagai project exec/secretary. sbab bidang tu yg saye amik time study dlu. sambil tgh cari keje ni, saye tgh melayan perasaan dgn lagu2 merdu Whitney Houston. Skang beliau sedang mendendang kan lagu, Why Does It Hurt So Bad yg cuba saye nyanyi kn mnggu lpas sewaktu ber'karaoke' bersama fuzy dan pja. Tapi sayang, ianya tidak menjadi....huhuhuhu..... Lagu ini sgt syahdu buat saye......
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berbalik kepada cerita mencari kerja, Alhamdulillah, saye tidak pernah hampa dgn Jobstreet. Most of the job that i got was from Jobstreet. I wish it won't let me down....
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till now, wanna concentrate in searching me a good job and of course wit a very very good salary. huhuhuhu.....

13.12.2009

~sigh~

it's been so long i didnt update my blog. nowadays, time's runnin too fast. Damn!

my sisters' wedding was held at my home. Akad nikah on 12122009 after maghrib. Around 200 guest were invited. Family, close relatives, close frens and neighbors only. On 13132009, the event started at 11am until 4pm. Invited guest around 1000 but i dunno how many of them came. The event goes well even it didnt happened as what i wanted. Maybe my expectation was too high or i'm seeking for perfection. Hurmmm....i just got no idea on that. But as long as my family happy and satisfied, i'm ok with it. For those who came for the wedding, thank u very much for your time and the present. (On behalf of Hayati.... :) Many of my mum's fren from subang came. My long lost fren, aliah, atiqah was here too. Suprisingly, asykil n irina pon ade. Yeehaaa!!!! Around 4pm, it's over. But still there are people came to my house till 9pm. Dang....i was too tired to entertain them. Sorry.... For my sis, i wish the very best with her new life. Alhamdulillah, at last she met her life partner. And i know my whole family was too happy for her.




As for me, well, i guess i already found my soulmate but i dunno whether he'll be my life partner. Que sera, sera....what will be will be. We just plan but God will decide. Anyway, so many things happened to me this year. There are sadness, craziness, happiness and loads of other feelings. 2009, a year to remember. This is the year when i met this guy, Fadhil Rahman. During my sis wedding, he helped a lot. Thank u so much dear. I can see that he can blend well with my family. I'm so happy with that :) sumtime, he's a bit crazy but that's why i like him.... He bring joy to my life. And cos of him, i started to smile once again.

my last update for today....might be for the whole week.

fairuz is sleeping, snoring and dreaming peacefully. so do her roomate. biadap...tetamu dtg xlayan lgsg

meeting my dear fadhil in sri gombak and off to rumah thai, tmn melati for our break fast.

spend our 3rd last ramadhan nite together. walking on the streets. pi jln tar lagi ke? or danau kota? any other spot? nnti la pk otw kang.

it starting to rain. i better off now!! chow...


SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI. MAAF ZAHIR BATIN TULUS DARI HATI..

1DEC84 + 4DEC82 = BLISSFUL LIFE

Yeeeaaayyyyy!!
Lame gile xupdate blog saya. Da nek b'karat dah blog ni. I'm too busy at the moment. Bru lpas training for a month and now i went "live". My new job needs me to give full attention while i'm working. even to pickup my personal calls was so hard. Also d working hours was so long. Hurmmmm......xpe la, nk cari rezeki namenye kan. perlu bnyk pengorbanan.

Dlm tmpoh yg agak pnjang pemergian saya dari dunia blog ni terlalu bnyk kenangan pahit dan manis. Walaupun umor blum genap 25 thun, saya rasakan saya telah melalui terlalu bnyk dugaan hidup. Allah still keep me sane. For me as long Allah still giving me the challenges in life, i know that Allah still keep looking on me. Allah is showing the love so that i wont go to too far from Him.

Alhamdulillah kenangan pahit tu sume dah berlalu.Sekarang dunia saya penuh dengan warna-warni pelangi. Ini kerana saya masih mempunyai keluarga yg menyayangi dan memahami diri saya yg penuh dengan pemberontakan. Dlu bole dikatakan saya seorg yg agak jauh dari keluarga. Masa saya hanya bersama rakan2. Personal problems xpenah dishare dgn mereka. Tpi skang, tu sume dah b'ubah. Saya sudah mula bercerita ttg idup saya pada mereka, terutamanya ibunda tersayang. Time kaseh mak, sbb sudi denga cite jahat anak mak ni. Walaupun mak marah tapi mak senyum gak. Tiap kali mak kol, msti mak pesan suh solat. Insya'allah mak.... Skang baru la saya tahu yang keluarga merupakan support system terkuat dalam hidup ni. Mereka tetap berada bersama2 saya dalam waktu2 susah saya yg mana saya tidak mampu share dgn org lain. Keluarga takkan meninggalkn saya. Saya pasti itu.....(dang....i'm getting emotional now. better i stop.)

Rakan-rakan yg setia bersama saya, thanks gal especially miss fuzy n eqin. Dan yg terbaru....my dear Dale, kekasih yg sangt baik hati. hihihihi :) Die selalu nyanyi lagu munajat cinta by dewa. It goes like this "Tuhan kirimkan lah aku, kekasih yang baik hati, yang mencintai aku apa adanya....." well, i guess i'm the one who should be humming that song cos God has sent me a very good guy. If only i met him earlier.....it's ok as eqin said “A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one” Yess....i agree wit dat. Sumetime its just a matter of time. Kite t'lmbt jumpe dgn org yg betul2 suit dgn kite n kite dah bazirkn masa, tenaga, usaha, emosi ngan org yg TIDAK berguna. Tpi xpe, jgn menyesali takdir. Bende2 ni sume buat kite lebih dewasa. Klu hidup sentiasa senang je pon xsyok gak.

Yang terbaru lagi...saya dah join Fitness First. Huhuhuhuhu....at last, i've made up my mind and joined it. Mmg da lame t'ingin tpi terlalu bnyk kekangan. Yess!!! Saya sudah mencapai BMI yg seimbang. Tiada lagi...overweight... YES!! YES!! YES!! Satu pencapaian yg agak besar buat diri saya yg sememang nya seorang yg lemah dgn hdangan2 yg menggiurkan. Sekarang fokus utk shape up and maintaining what i've achieved today. Saya selalu pegi pun abes keje. So time balik Dale la yg masih setia mengambl dan menghntr saya pulang. Thank u dear.

Till here for today. I need to rush up to settle sumthing with a biatch and then fly back to my dear. Daaaa......